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[13 Jul 2010|07:55pm]
"when we were young i really believed love would never leave us
but time has a knack of pulling the rug out from underneath us..."
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[07 Mar 2010|12:59pm]
that boy is a monster
...he ate my heart
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[02 Sep 2008|05:08pm]
[ mood | jubilant ]

butterflies have replaced the gut-wrenching somersaults that made themselves at home in my stomach not so long ago.


i like vitamins. [16 Aug 2008|10:22am]
[ mood | anxious ]

ok guys, SERIOUSLY. in honor of hurricane season, look at this. especially brooks.


ok bye.

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[15 Aug 2008|11:55am]
[ mood | indifferent ]

tomorrow i'm leaving to go up north for awhile.

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memory/note. [02 Aug 2008|08:18am]
[ mood | peaceful ]

i met up with caitlin. she brought me some really beautiful things from india. we ate at mustard's, went for a walk downtown, then went to the beach. later we met up with the boys where we got coffee, looked at japanese mythology, and constructed/destroyed buildings that we made out of legos/dominoes/jenga blocks.
it was a nice evening.


activity of the day. [23 Jul 2008|05:35pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

today after work i went for a walk and stopped in the park where i saw a baby sandhill crane that was trapped inside the fence that surrounds the playground. i watched him try to get out for about 10 minutes and by then his parents had given up on him and he began to pace back and forth and squawk so i decided to help him out by chasing(following) him over to the gateway. we were almost there and then all of a sudden he flapped his wings and lunged over me(just missing me as his foot brushed through my hair), over the fence and over to his parents. i wish someone else had been there with a camera.

oh! and i also picked a turtle up out of the road and put him in the grass because there were cars coming. he hissed at me, but i think he was pretty happy about it.

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how i wish i were a superhero. or at least knew one. [18 Jul 2008|09:23am]
[ mood | determined ]


i have been waiting for this forever.

and i found some old 'glamorous' shots of me from the summer of 2004.
heh, i looked so youngCollapse )

3 speak; read

bicycles. [12 Jul 2008|11:53am]
[ mood | mischievous ]

i woke up early this morning and went on a reaallllyyy long bike ride. it was completely wonderful. stress relief and exercise and nature and exploration and all that good stuff rolled up into environment-friendly transportation. i'm making it a part of my daily routine now and soon i won't have to drive anymore.


thank you. [15 Oct 2007|12:32pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

i feel like all the weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.
i just feel so much better about everything.
things will start to be okay again...
it's just this amazing feeling i have.

1 speak; read

i'm. still. here. [13 Oct 2007|12:31pm]
[ mood | restless ]

the weather has been getting more and more beautiful lately... i think it calls for a walk along railroad tracks or the river or renting a canoe or carving pumpkins or just sitting outside and enjoying a bottle of wine with my friends.

i was hanging out with a friend yesterday, and his response to my conversation was to state one of truman capote's quotes...

"more tears are shed over answered prayers than unanswered ones"

i actually found it to be rather chilling.
...gives a whole new perspective to being careful what you wish for...


what happened to eastern promises?! [11 Oct 2007|11:17pm]
[ mood | silly ]

i've been busy/preoccupied these past few days. figuring some things out, making choices, spending time with new and close friends... thinking. putting together my halloween costume, learning to dance, practically living in downtown melbourne.
i think i'm going to start making pottery/ash trays. i'll sell them to my friends who never seem to have enough of them.

and guess who i ran into today... zach from a few years ago!!
it was weird because i was reminded of him the other day when i was thinking about our (literally) TEN minute trip i-bar, and then he just appeared out of nowhere.

now all we need are loud obnoxious sluts, jacuzzi boy, a few cops, and we'll have the entire cast of one of chris' parties...
i miss those.
i miss a lot of things.
i miss evenings on the roof of the greenhouse.
i miss brooks.
i miss... ok, laura, shut up, this IS an endless list.

p.s. apparently the public library is a happening place on the dating scene. i got asked out TWICE today. one was a hippie boy and i'm pretty sure the other lives in a box... so i hope you don't think i'm bragging. i might as well work in a bar. there's about the same amount of public drunkeness, lunacy, and indecent exposure.

p.s.s. i am seriously wondering if i should consider moving away to go to school.
p.s.s.s. oh yeah, we're starting a beer league and we're going to be juggling? is that a brilliant plan or what? i think the frisby/dominoes idea was much better.

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falling asleep to the sound of rain... [07 Oct 2007|09:15pm]
[ mood | anticipatory ]

i know the craziest people, and because of that, i get dragged to some pretty eccentric places. this afternoon's psychic convention was no exception.
and i am wondering what i should know about kayaks before i adopt the one my co-worker is giving away.

i love wes anderson, ADRIEN BRODY, and jason schwartzman...
i want to see the darjeeling limited.
i also want some denny's pumpkin pie, a nighttime ocean trip, and owl sweater weather.

all of the library workers have to get together tomorrow for a silly pep rally. each library is supposed to pick an inspirational song that captures the essence of its work environment... my library's theme song was chosen unanimously- the twilight zone.
i am actually thinking about skipping work for a few days to go off somewhere for the weekend... a mini road trip maybe... miami, orlando, gainesville? the possibilities are pretty endless.

anyone want to join me?

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... let this be [04 Oct 2007|01:02pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

this will always be one of my favorite quotes...

"In the best of times, our days are numbered anyway. So it would be a crime against nature for any generation to take the world crisis so solemnly, that it put off enjoying those things for which we were designed in the first place: the opportunity to do good work, to enjoy friends, to fall in love, to hit a ball, and to bounce a baby."

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above all else, i wish things could be simple. [02 Oct 2007|10:08am]
[ mood | anxious ]

a friend of mine was telling me something about an astrological shift that's been taking place. and it has something to do with the wind. from last october to this october, many signs were affected(negatively) by these changes. and i've noticed it, haven't you? there has been a lot of negativity, a lot of anxiety, stress, and an unbelievable number of endings to longterm relationships/friendships.
in fact, if i look back to last october up until now, it has been a terrible 12 months... i was engulfed in negativity and depression, i've had awful family problems, i've been in two car accidents, i was very sick for the better part of two months, my grandmother passed away, and the most important person in my life walked away from me.
BUT... october 1st, yesterday, which was a VERY windy day, is supposed to mark the beginning of a gradual increase in positive changes.
i am counting on it.

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even if you think you know who you are, you don't. [25 Sep 2007|11:08am]
[ mood | so sad ]

I don't mean to close the door
But for the record my heart is sore
You blew through me like bullet holes
Left stains on my sheets and stains on my soul
You left me broke down begging for change...

...I'm a shake you off though
Get up on that horse and
Ride into the sunset
Look back with no remorse

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[23 Sep 2007|02:14pm]
[ mood | curious ]

ok, so i stopped being good and kind of treated myself to a little shopping spree. afterall, the weather is going to cool off and i need sweaters and a fashionable little coat to be snuggly in.

and! i was so excited to go to denny's a few days ago and see pumpkin pie on the menu.
seems like just last year i was getting excited about that very same thing.
how fast a year goes by...

and! donuts ARE a dessert contrary to popular belief and the staff at dunkin donuts.

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roadtrips with autumn leaves and hot cocoa... [20 Sep 2007|03:54pm]
[ mood | refreshed ]

these past few days have been a whirlwind of realizations, emotions, thoughts, ideas, plans, an execution of those plans, etcetera, etceter, etcet, etc...
i feel better than i've felt in a long time.

a show i went to the other night was pretty good even though the band i wanted to see apparently got kicked out of their own performance. anyway, i'm happy to be with these people even when they are a little crazy/drunk/affectionate. i am very excited about going to imago. because i like art and music and mixed drinks and good company and the downtown area in general.

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i notice i'm big on list-making [17 Sep 2007|10:17am]
[ mood | excited ]

i have started to save money for things i want to do in the future...
i already have quite a bit because i've cut down tremendously on my shopping.

-trip to kennedy space center
-orlando science center
-museum of history and science in cocoa
-shows that are coming up at the social
-possible road trip out west somewhere?
-camping somewhere up north
-trips to st. augustine/key west/new orleans/california/new york(this will take A LOT OF SAVING)
-renting a water vehicle for the day

there ARE things to do. i will not allow myself to be bored or lazy.

p.s. taking a dog to the beach would be soooo much fun. this will happen.
p.p.s. i think i want a scooter.
p.p.p.s. someone recommend something good for me to watch/read/experience
p.p.p.p.s oh! i bought my first pair of sneakers in FIVE years!!

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i think i work at TWO libraries now [16 Sep 2007|09:00am]
[ mood | exhausted. ]

climbing trees...
gives you a different view of the world.
literally and figuratively.
i enjoyed it anyway

when i have my own place, i will paint the walls great colors, leave the windows open as much as the temperature will allow, and i will have a trampoline in my yard. i will have to have a porch to sit out on. this place will be located by things that are close enough to walk/ride a bike to. chinese takeout, coffee house, some kind of body of water. it won't be just a house. it will be our home. it will all be so beautiful.
...these things i look forward to.

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